Stephy's Journal

Oprah's Most Touching Episode Ever... A Holocaust Survivor Reveals

"I feel a sense of communion with the spirits and those who died and those who survived to bear witness. I have never felt human," by Oprah Winfrey.

Professor Elie Wiesel is a Holocaust survivor. This was one of Oprah's best show ever. Professor Wiesel tells his story on how he survived from the Nazis. It was so touching and I can feel every emotion as he and Oprah Winfrey walks in Auschwitz where most of the Jews are treated as the most lowly creature, burning them alive, some of them are tortured, just like in the movie "Schindler's List".

Here's a brief description about him that I got in the Internet(http://www.ushmm.org/museum/exhibit/focus/wiesel/):

Holocaust survivor Elie Wiesel, champion of human rights and advocate for awareness of past and potential acts of genocide, received the Nobel Peace Prize in 1996. On the atrocities in Sudan, Wiesel asked in July 2004 "How can a citizen of a free country not pay attention? How can anyone, anywhere not feel outraged? How can a person, whether religious or secular, not be moved by compassion? And above all, how can anyone who remembers remain silent?" He continues to speak out. In April 2006, Wiesel urged a rally of tens of thousands on the National Mall to call for an end to genocide in Darfur: "Silence helps the killer, never his victims."

Wiesel also served as chair of the President’s Commission on the Holocaust and was a guiding force in the establishment of the United States Holocaust Memorial Museum. In his best-known work, Night, Elie Wiesel describes his experiences and emotions at the hands of the Nazis during the Holocaust: the roundup of his family and neighbors in the Romanian town of Sighet; deportation by cattle car to the concentration camp Auschwitz-Birkenau; the division of his family forever during the selection process; the mental and physical anguish he and his fellow prisoners experienced as they were stripped of their humanity; and the death march from Auschwitz-Birkenau to the concentration camp at Buchenwald.

Exposed Diary

These are the fragments of my diary. I wanted to write it in my blog for I might lose this diary. Kapag dumating ang pagka-topak ko ay baka maitapon ko pa ito.Saka nagsusulat ako ng diary kapag masam ang loob ko, wala na akong makausap tungkol sa mga problema ko, feeling ko ako wala akong kakampi, parang its me against the world, sobrang saya ko, in-luv ako, basta nagsusulat ako kapag ako ay puno ng emosyon. These is uncut at wla akong npakialam kung

mali

ang grammar ko nung ginawa ko ito.hehehehe….. Ayokong mawala kasi ung mismong emotion when I wrote this…..

January 21, 2005

            Hindi ko naman nagawa ang best ko. Nanakit ng kapwa at at ni hindi pa alam kung ano ang dahilan. Ang tanga ko di ba?

            Hayyyy... medyo masaya din naman ako khit papaano. Nandyan ang bestfriend ko ngayon na si Allan na nakikinig sa mga kwento ko. Medyo gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. Gusto kong gumawa ng mabuti pero ay lumalabas ay mali pa rin ako.

            Hindi nanaman ako nakapag-ipon. Marami kaming gastusin at hindi ako humihingi ng pera. Di ba mas mabuti iyon dahil ako ay nakakatulong kay Tatay. Ayokong mging pabigat at problema sa pamilya. Pero ano naman ang ngangyayari??? Pag-uwi ko ng bahay galing school at byahe ay napapagalitan ako sa aking gma maliit na pagkakaamali. Kaya medyo takot akong magkamali at ayoko talagang mapagalitan, eh sino ba ang gustong mapagalitan, di ba wala naman! Hindi na nga ako lumalabas sa kuwarto para walang masabing masama sa akin.

            May mga taong sobrang mapapel. Yung taong lagi na lang nagmamalinis at laging binubuhat ang sariling bangko.

            Ayoko sa taong nagdedesisiyon para sa iba. Yung tipong gusto kang pagawin ng mga bagay-bagay na hindi mo naman gusto at masama sa loob mo na gawin iyon kasi ayaw mo! Mabilis ako naiirita sa mga taong ganyan at kahit tahimik ako kunwari(minsan...) ay baka mabulyawan ko pa siya ng wala sa oras.

            Nakakakuha ako ng mataas na marka sa STS!!!!! Ang saya ko at gusto ko sana i-treat ang sarili ko for this small achievement… pero siguro sa sususnod na lang. Siguro bibili ako ng bag o di kaya’y cap na Nike!!!! Mag-aaral ako ng mabuti at masisikap. Sana tumaas ang grades ko this summer classes... Babawi na ako at mag-aaral na talaga ng mabuti....

            Ang mga biro ng mga kaklase ko sa kain ay OK lang. Mahaba naman ang pasensya ko at minsan tumatawa na lang. Hindi ko dinidibdib ang mga biro dahil biro nga lang iyon. Kahit twagin akong ”aja” o kahit ano pa ay OK lang.  Mas masaya ang second semeter ko. Puro tawanan at lokohan at mga matatalino ang gma kaklase ko!

            God guide me and give me strength to face each day. Help me to become brave and faithful to you. I love you God! Bless my father, Tita Selfa, Uncle Raffy,  my brother Patrick, and all to all the people that I cared for. I really miss achie Norie!!!!

January 22, 2005

Birthday ni Steph ngayon. Debut pa nga nya. Hindi ko nga alam kung appropriate etong damit na isisuot ko. Kulay blue (light blue) na medyo Chinese style at naka-skirt ako. Naka ballet flats ako. Hayyyy….. Hindi ko talaga alam kung tama ang ginagawa ko.

            

            

            Ngayon, ay nagkukulay ako ng para sa project naming sa Statistics, group project na ang concept ay mga  ‘preso’ o mga nasa kulungan at nag-file ng mga document s at profile ng mga detainee sa professor namin..

            I can’t wait to tell about this. Ang ganda ng nangyari sa debut ni Steph na katukayo ko. Na-miss ko ang lahat ng mga kaklase    

            

on being a fourth year... a PCI!!!!!

     A few days from now, we're be having our summer classess. Since we are now juniors and will soon become seniors, we have a community duty. The adapted community are PAGRAI, Baybay Sapa(but someone told me that we're not going there!), and the new community Liliw, Laguna. I've been to Liliw already for we had our Medical Mission there.  But only a few people are going to have their duties at Liliw, Laguna. There were rumors that only 50 or 80 of the sutdents fom more than 300 in our batch.... well I thinkit's going to be tough for the professors to choose these selected students.

     Anyway, with these situation, I think they are going to prepare us to become a good PCI. I think it's going to be tough but we can handle it. There are pleasures and sufferings of being a PCI to the 3rd year students. It's fun to impart some knowledge to you fellow nursing colleagues who are younger then you or who are in the lower year. BUt it's quite scary if you can't handle the situation, you need to prepare for it.

     We're going to wear our white uniforms at last! tThough we still wear the blue and white uniform, it still felt good that our hardships were at last given a reward. This simple white uniform meant a lot more to us. BUt it also meant that it's going to be our last year as a college student.

Bittersweet Grand Case Presentation

As a nursing student, our school requires us to have a grand case presentation done during the last week of the semester in 3rd year college. We were assigned to the different areas to have to get a clinical case to be presented to the jurors. This grand case presentation is equivalent to one rotation in a hospital duty.

We learned from our mistakes our first grand case presentation was a tip-off. It was humiliating when the jurors are bombarding us with questions that we can't answer..... the hell with it... it was over.... we've done our best.. hehehe... in the 1st grand case pres that we had..... we even had sleepless nights. ... overnights at xtrian lingan's fabulous house.... we were so unlucky with the gathering of the data for we had only a few day... only days to prepare for it!!!!!

As what i've said to hell with it!!!!! It's over!!!! We've learned from mistakes!!!! We bagged the 2nd place.. Our grades was 93%! whoa!!! tThe 1st place got a grade of 93.33%hehehe.. wewere only behind of 0.33%....We haven't been expecting for it.... we were so lucky...it was nerve-wracking, fabulous experience. At last I had a medal in college!!!! hehehehe.... ang babaw ko pero napaka-sarap ng feeling.. lasang chocolate.... Nasulit ang pag-stay nmin sa skul hanggang sa cantin ng mahigit 12 oras... grabeh umaalis aq ng bhay ng 5 am para mag-duty at umuuwi aq ng mga 8 or 9 pm..... itong pagkapanalo nmin ay dhil sa tiniis na uhaw, gutom( dhil wlang pera pangkain habang nagtatrabaho pero salamat sa ice cream na nilibre ni Lingan !!!hehehe), at maghapong pagstay sa cantin, thank you sa laptop ni Ana... dhil din ito sa solid na groupmates sa health team; sina Xtian, Mae, Tam, Liza, Ana,

JOLITS, BETTY, JARRET, at AICA kya kmi ay nagtagumpay..... sinugod p nmin si sir Osea n adviser nmin sa grannd case para magpacheck nito.. at dhil n dim k Ate Dyanne na nging PCI nmin sa VGH-Medical kya nging maganda ang NCP nmin.... dhil n din ito kay Papa Jesus kya kmi nagwagi.. masay n q dhil 2nd place kmi.. out of mga 28 groups ata.. buong batch ang naging mga contenders.... at naging 2 kmi!!!! Wow sobra-sobrang achievement n 'to....

My junior's life going to be over..... AT LAST!!!! ( on the surface)

                    

(my classm8s 3Nu5: the Royal Family)

                      Health care team with section 6 and sir Osea at EAMC

          

Big Night

OMG 4th year na Q!!!! me summer p nmn kmi... sna makuha aq for summer immersion sa Liliw, Laguna!!!!!! khit malayo at least enjoy at hehehe. daming fud!!!! Fudtrip galore!!! Masaya ang maging 4th year kasi magiging PCI(Practicing Clinical Instructor) n kmi sa mga 3rd year Insignis..... at ga-graduate n kmi..... grabehhh finish na din ang lht ng paghihirap ko at nnmin nung 3rd year... sobrang pasakit ang binigay ng mga professors, kung pwede lng ay lumuhod aq..(hnd ko nmn ito ngawa dhil khit papaano ay pumasa ako at wla aqng removals!)hheehehehe hnd nmn .... Basta mami-miss ko ang mga kalokohan, kagaguhan, at kakwelahan nung 3rd year, maraming na-reveal, maraming naging friends, lalo n sa section 8... dhil to k sis Allan... syempre masaya pag marami ang friends....Khit mga nsa batch Insignis ay nagkaroon aq ng maraming mga friends khit minsan ay hanggang sa mukha q lng sila nakikilala at aq nmn ay parang mukhang tanga n bumabati sa kanila.... nagkaroon din kmi ng kahit papaano ng achievements for these year.... nagsimula kmi sa 75 na total grade sa Grand Case Presentation at umabot n kmi sa TOP 3... mamaya ng 8 AM ang awarding at excited n q.... grabeh hnd ko to ine-expect at khit din nmn ang mga ka-groupmates ko ay hnd dn inexpect na magiging puro line of 9 ang ibibigay na grades ng mga panelist.... me step-pinsan nmn aq n naka-close, naging tight ang friendhip lalo na sa health team ko n group 4 at sa mga naging ka-barkada ko nund 1st year college...tapos me balak kmi na mag-Batangas!!!!! Yipee... lht ng pagod, ilang araw na wlang tulog, puro eyebags n lang ang makikita sa mga mata ng clasm8s q, iyakan, heartache(syempre wla aq nun!), tawanan, kabaliwan, at kakikayan ang nangyari sa buhay ko these 3 years of college life.... nagkaroon dn kmi ng reunioni ng mga klasm8s q nung high skul..... grabeh sobrang nag-iba ang mga mukha nila... nag-excel on their chosen of "unchosen" fields.. ehehehehe.... sobrang mami-miss ko din ang mga fudtrip at pagkaburaot ng mga kaklase .... mga masasayang duty days.. ang binggong pagkal8 ko sa St luke's na nauwi sa pagiging close sa magandang CI na si Mam Godoy, mga duty days ksma ang mga mababait at makukulit na mga professors, mga pinauso sa community na "wat's MAIS ba????"....whatever Lingan..... mga BCG, DPT, OPV, at HepB vaccine na na-inject ko sa mga kawawang bata ksma nun si dakilang Sir Mike Osea..... Naalala ko dn ang mga bonding moments ksma ang mga nurses sa OPD ng St. Luke's dn ksma si Shyn......

Bringing Back the Friendship with a HANDOG

Since we got into third year college as nursing students, I haven't seen my kabarkada together, not until the "Handog" event. We were usually busy with our studies, our schedules were so different with each other. My other friends like Hanan, Homer, Angelika, Ingrid, Aziel, and Mikka were in Team A while Alan, shyne, Ace, Nina, Nino, and I were on Team B because of our surnames. We only had to say hi and hello with everyone whenever we meet at the pathwal or in the HSc. But today, we had actually met each other and we were all complete in the barkada!!!! Though Nino had his duty at NCH, we were so happy on seeing each other. Shyn had to go to her auntie's house together with his BF. We took pictures, we laughed, and talked about the memories that we spent when we were in 1st and 2nd year. I really want to have this kind of event again in order to have the friendship back again.

Handog

At our college juniors pay tribute to the achievements of the senior nursing students. I'm a junior and it's our time to pay tribute and bid farewell to the fourth year. Our batch Magis preapared a simple treat to the fourth year. It was simple yet very memorable. We laughed so hard when the "Pussycat Dolls" who were the gays of the batch Magis performed and exuded their beauty and appeal. It had brought us fun and so much excitement. Although the fourth year's going to have their preboard exams today, they stilll spent their time on our little show for them. Talents were unleashed, even hidden ones. Though faults and mishaps were made, I can say that this event was a success.

Sa 1 Balat ng SAging

Tralalala....

sa isang balat ng saging,

Sa Isang balat ng saging

sa isang balt ng saging,

Nagkaroon ng monster!!!!

Hehehehe.....

heart to heart talk with my father

It's been a long time since me and my dad talked about things and stuffs like these and that. My dad opens his heart to me, he conveys his feelings, and I feel like he opened another piece of his heart to me. My dad is one of my greatest treasures that I have(hehehe and drama....). I'm not sweet to my dad yet I knew that he loves me and he knew also that I loved him sooo much......

My dad is kinda strict and a disciplinarian but he's sometimes soft and has mercy to his children... He's my hero, refuge, shelter, and a great friend......

I'll never be able to replace my father with anyone or anything else...... He's just the only ONE......

I never knew a thing on how to repay his love, kindness, and loyalty to me as his daughter......

Keeping secrets.....saving friends

secrets are easily revealed.... they can build a friendship, destroy a friendship, a relationship and even ruin a person's dignidty....

Well, gus2 ko lng sabihin n secrets are to be buried underground..... way below to the earth's core.... where no one can dig it up... secrets are like bombs which are highly destructible... much more volatile and harmful than the antimatter.... but secrets spreads faster.... faster than a boeing jet..... swifter than a submarine.....

hehehe.... especially when you knew that when somebody would knew about this,  your friend's reputation would be destroyed... but you want to protect the friendship though you knew that your friend's character was not acceptable.... you want to tell her that she had a done a grave thing... but you can't.....